Well, I got strep throat this week.
I was feeling great, just a little sluggish all last week. I said in my previous post that I haven’t been eating very well, and that followed in to last week. (was my last post last week? I don’t even remember at this point.) Saturday was a really good day – Chris and I slept in, we had a late breakfast, started some wedding crafts (which look SUPER great so far, by the way), skyped with an officiant, and then I had a great run. I was feeling a little weary after my run, but I chalked it up to being tired after the physical activity and maybe a little dizzy from spray painting (although I don’t think I inhaled any, but who knows?). We decided to get ready and go to Austin cause there was a singer/songwriter performing at SWSX that I have loved since high school, and it was free.
We went to the concert and I felt fine. As we were hanging out at the festival, though, I started feeling a little worse. Again, I just thought I was tired from being stressed at work and having run that day. I also really really really wanted to see Ben Kweller perform, and we were already there. So I pushed it aside. During Ben Kweller’s performance, however, I was finding it hard to swallow. Maybe I had one too many drinks? Or maybe I was singing too much? I kept dancing and singing, but dialed it back a bit. When it was over, Chris noticed some people were going backstage to meet him, which I would normally be all over. I knew something was coming because when Chris asked if I wanted to go do that, I said “nope, get me in the car and take me home.” I needed water, and I needed sleep, ASAP.
We got home, I gargled water with salt (hey, Mom!), and went straight to sleep thinking it was a cold and I would start to feel better on Sunday.
Oh, man, Sunday. I spent the whole day Sunday sleeping. I could barely keep my eyes open for a 30 minute show. I would watch a show, fall asleep for about an hour and a half, then repeat. I got to a point where I could watch TWO 30 minute shows without falling asleep, but it was hard. I was just so tired. I have never felt that way. It felt like little knives were all along my throat when I would swallow, and my ears felt puffy, which created a little buffer from sound. I already kind of knew I probably wouldn’t go in to work on Monday, but I held off calling my boss to see if I got miraculously better by the morning.
Monday morning, I woke up, and even though I felt a little better, I still knew there was no way I was going to function at work. I haven’t taken any sick days since being employed in July, so I called and took the day off. At least on Monday it didn’t feel like knives in my throat anymore, but it still hurt, a LOT. This time, though, it felt like I had swallowed a cotton ball and it was just sitting there in the back of my throat, preventing me from getting a full swallow of water or whatever in. It’s an awful feeling, you guys. We went to the clinic, and low and behold – I have strep! Yaaaay. Most likely given to me by a client, but who knows. I was ordered not to go to work til Thursday and to take antibiotics. So, that’s what I did/am doing.
I already feel a million times better. It still hurts when I yawn (which is a really weird thing), but for the most part, I’m almost 100% back to normal. Here’s the real kicker, though – I didn’t realize how much stress and anxiety I was holding on to until I got sick. Your body really just has a way of letting you know “Hey, I need a break. Slow down, would ya?!” Because I wouldn’t have slowed down without getting strep. I’ve had a cold and kept going to work. I like my job. But oh, these three days have been pretty nice. I’m feeling really really zen right now. I had to check my work email today and was so nervous it was just going to unravel all the relaxing I’ve done over the week, and it didn’t. I feel great. I didn’t realize how much I was taking on at work. I mean, I’m the only counselor in my office and I’ve been taking ALL of the referrals…I have way more clients than I am supposed to…more than I can physically see in one week. I have a hard time saying no or turning people away, ok? I have dug myself in to a hole, and unfortunately, when I get back to work tomorrow, I’m going to have to find a way to crawl out of it. I know what I have to do differently going forward, and this sickness was definitely a learning experience for me. I see now how counselors get burned out so so so quickly. It’s a hard job. If I can’t take care of myself, though, how am I going to take care of my clients? I need limits, and boundaries. I hope this new zen-ness can carry me through til the end of the school year (summer slows down a looooot), and I’m sure as hell gonna keep trying to mentally check in with myself at least once a week. I shouldn’t let STREP THROAT be the reason I see I need some downtime. I need to be much more aware, and that is a new goal for me in my workplace.
Guys – take care of yourselves, please. Strep is not a fun thing, and I do not want it again, even though I enjoyed this time off, I was mostly on the couch. Check in with yourselves; love yourself.
As for my fitness goals – they obviously took a back burner this week. I haven’t done my push up challenge since Sunday, although technically that was a rest day in the challenge. I’m going to start it back up today, so I think I’ll only be about 2 days behind. So it’ll be a 32 day push up challenge for me, instead of 30. ;-) Hey, at least I’m going to keep going, right?
Be zen, my friends. Be zen.
Until next time,